Dream

I had 2 long dreams.

I guess the most interesting part was I was with Ellen DeGeneres and ... for some reason ... ... she was holding my fingers with her fingers, and for some reason I made myself feel really stimulated. First, she had my left fingers, and soon after my right fingers and she worked her way up grasping my right wrist bone on the right. I felt really stimulated by however she moved, too. Why was it nice? Well, you get a certain feeling when you're with people and when you're with people you like and want to get close to.. She was really nice. Also, when people touch you, sometimes there is a certain connection and you feel really strongly. I think it ended there.

She was in my dream I think hosting something at the beginning, too, and like was there the 2nd time, but I wasn't involved in her.

I know I was jogging around a track at church and imagining a tall old lady picking me up, which didn't really feel that good, but it's something I do. Well, no, I don't usually do that. Well, that's how it happened, and it was kinda a concrete thought. I dunno, I just "did it." I am usually hesitent to imagine things like that..

A new cheerleader friend was in it with big arms and skinny legs. I was jumping up. I recorded myself lying in bed swirving around in a circle, like lying down, without moving any muscles, an elating experience.

So, it was neat, for some reason she was like holding my fingers and moving them and it just really stimulated my fingers physically and me.

For some reason, I felt stimulated in some interesting ways, when I was lying in bed, which it seems I usually do these days, I've decided. However, it's funny, this one time, I was totally knocked out. I'm careful not to be too careful when I stimulate myself, though.

I also find myself really tired, which tells me my diet is too strict. :( However, I was getting diabetes, so maybe no dessert.

I guess it was just really nice for someone to do something different like play with my fingers. I guess it was weird that it happened, but it was interesting how strongly it felt. It didn't exactly totally knock me out, but it was a strong feeling I had. At least, it wasn't that metally feeling, which I got rid of when I came home from college.

I'm just afraid I'll need to give myself shots for diabetes for having dessert but like never drinking soda and stuff. It seems like a phase I'm going through because I used to not eat dessert much for awhile. I do feel kinda like restless and irritated.

So, what do you think about when people touch you? People haven't really touched me, where I live, and I don't really let them, for some reason.