Before

Before, I had thought that I could impress someone by hurting them figuratively, like in imagination but not really hurting, like feeling a blast.  :/  I wonder if I hurt everyone in some way, though.  :{  Oh no, I didn't mean to hurt anyone, really.  Why can't I control myself?  I wonder what will happen to me, now.  What will happen if I have kids to my kids?  Also, what about the people I care about?  I wonder if I'll get hurt in my dreams or if my parents will do something I don't like, again, like my dad.  That will just make me feel bad, again, and I'll sit there with a pout face and he'll get mad again..