Friday, September 28, 2012
Weak
I'm getting that weak feeling again, from eating healthily. It's an elated feeling, and I feel stuff around me, for some reason, in a good way.
My Dad
When he came home, he did something messec up. He leaned over and made his eyes look wide and narrow. He did it in a way that didn't seem nice, like I've seen kids act. Why doesn't he just go hang out with them?
Mad?
Why does my mom make such a big deal about my behavior? Like turns over every stone? My dad doesn't make me mad like an animal.
I also feel that people are being saucy with me, like if I do something where I get mad, they think that I did something to them.
I also feel that people are being saucy with me, like if I do something where I get mad, they think that I did something to them.
Uh.
My dad was just home. The police weren't here. My mom is still in her room.
I'm upset. I got upset at Tim Burton. "Hotel Transylvania" is coming out. I think it put me in a bad mood.
My dad just had to go to the bathroom. He didn't seem upset, though. ?:
I'm upset. I got upset at Tim Burton. "Hotel Transylvania" is coming out. I think it put me in a bad mood.
My dad just had to go to the bathroom. He didn't seem upset, though. ?:
Suspicious Activity
I got so mad at the dog. The dog was suggestive to me on some place on the left side of my body.
Now, my mom is "calling" people ... someone about something and a friend, I think.
Now, my mom is "calling" people ... someone about something and a friend, I think.
Things Getting in the Way of My Life
If Tim Burton has, for no good reason, retreated from the world, to only take care of his daughter, then, why is his daughter still getting in the way of my life?
Also, I got mad, I just was acting mad and like closed the laundry machine hard. Now, my mom locked me out of her room. She probably feels good she thinks she has an incentive to call the police on me, like my parents have done twice. I don't like that. I go to a hospital, and my dad won't take me back since I came back after one night last time, convinced a Chinese doctor I was ready to leave. He is mean.
Also, I forget exactly what I was thinking, but, if something isn't wrong to begin with ... like, why is there a problem?
My life is not at a good stage, and I really want to stay home.
Also, I got mad, I just was acting mad and like closed the laundry machine hard. Now, my mom locked me out of her room. She probably feels good she thinks she has an incentive to call the police on me, like my parents have done twice. I don't like that. I go to a hospital, and my dad won't take me back since I came back after one night last time, convinced a Chinese doctor I was ready to leave. He is mean.
Also, I forget exactly what I was thinking, but, if something isn't wrong to begin with ... like, why is there a problem?
My life is not at a good stage, and I really want to stay home.
Mad
I probably shouldn't have gotten so mad, but I was pretty fed up.
Oh no, now what will happen? D:
My parents just won't leave me alone!
Oh no, now what will happen? D:
My parents just won't leave me alone!
Mad
My mom is usually out on Fridays, lately, but I just found out what she does on Fridays. I wasn't feeling well.
She's a pervert, too, and always mean to me.
She's a pervert, too, and always mean to me.
Visions in My Walk ... or ... The Big Picture
So, it's not a secret. I have a big obsession with Ellen DeGeneres. I don't know why, but she's really cool, one of the coolest people out there, to me. I find her to be sweet and smart, just like me, the words everyone used to describe me, as I matured.
I'm a bit old for Ellen DeGeneres, but when push comes to shove I will admit that she's old enough to know everything about me because I know everything about you. So, no, I'm not really, in every way ... too old for Ellen DeGeneres.
What concerns me most is the afterlife. No one is concerned about what happens when we die. I'm actually more concerned about what happenson this earth.
So, my biggest obsession is the ride that features Ellen DeGeneres at Disney World. I am obsessed with her robot. I am also obsessed with the trees around her.
I think everyone is most obsessed with that, underneath it all. It's not what they dwell on, like me.
So, I walked out in the road with cars zooming past me almost constantly, always thinking, always reacting, thinking about this, though I had a lot of quiet moments.
I've been on some adventures myself that involve the "afterlife." I shared this experience with other people, in certain ways, but I knew I could get people to come into it for me, if I can tap into it in a certain area. The funny thing is a hurricane brought me there, when I thought my life was an experiment, eventually.
So, one thing I came up with that probably is an idea lots of people have had is that there are ghost-infested areas, and I started watching "Ghost Adventures" as my first TV thing, after my life changed when I punched my wall, not in a very bad way, feeling treated racially bad online.
The ultimate thing, I can't remember exactly, would be to concoct this hugely complicated idea that road with me as I walekd where like you get a comepetent movie star to go to a ghost site with a bunch of people ... does't sound that cool. If you think about it, it makes sense.
My initial idea was to go in a place with a lot of foliage, like dark, but away from society so that you know there's no one there. I'm not sure about the animals.
There's just one thing to think about I guess, and it guides you to your goal. My goal is or was Disney World, and then it became Disneyland when I finalized it.
The one thing that keeps me going is think of it this way. If you can get people excited and scared, they will end up doing anything.
I guess one magical thing that happened to me was when I went to Disney World with my friend, my hair was smooth and curly just those days, like in those little black curls but not too small but pretty small. She surprised me. It was a very "realistic" experience, but it was very enriching. After living in Disney, it's kinda not really magical, me not having gone there when I believed in magic, but I was lucky enough to go along pretty excited and have some funny things happen. I guess I got practice from being with my friends. Well, 1 friend. (Oh no, there was and is a moth around my computer screen. There are 2 things in my bathroom, too, still.)
Well, I didn't get any souveniers when we went to Disney World on my birthday. We didn't go much growing up. I went when I was 10 with relatives. I went with my friend a few times as a pre-teen and teenager. I went to Grad Nite, which, I was tired, but other than that, it was so cool. Then, we went back again in the summer, and my relatives and friend came.
(I've been battling this moth. Maybe, I should ignore it or tired it out.)
Well, I know that when I think of something that it will mappen.
(I turned on the light and brushed it away.)
I was thinking of what was set up when I was 11 and that I was supposed to like baby people my brother's age, who I got on with more than my brother. My brother seemed to always be in the way. I'm taller than the smaller ones probably.
I don't like people who kinda look to the finish and don't want an adventure, who don't have to live. 8^.
Do you also know about people who think they deserve everything?
Well, I think I will be a dinosaur for Halloween.
So, I don't quite know where to begin. Should I hint in a movie, an idea I got, after someone passed by. How would I do that? The main thing I've been thinking about is trees and like glimpses, like ideas, or like ghosts of people. I wonder what goes on through the heads of others and how real the onset is. I can't really think fo what I wan tot.
I know some people never get surprised, conveniently enough. I guess the little things surprise them.
Ifound fun when I was up north and like walking around the city and buying things, looking at things, just dreaming about what interested me. I wasn't able to sustain these things. Only a few things happened. I had a wild time in Orlando.
I wast thinking most people these days don't realize the importance of the experiences of your life.
I guess when I went camping up north was an incredible experience, in and of itself. You have to build up experiences and not take things for grantec.
So, I noticed a lot of people feel a lot, and that's fine with me, though I know I wanted to feel a lot but in a different way.
I wonder why some people don't feel as much ... why some people think ... I forget now.
I wonder why me being the child of someone a certain way I supposedly don't meet his needs as much as the generation that followed him.
So, I am easily succomed by stupidity? I guess I'm uncomfortable. I noticed I don't really feel anything, anymore, and like I don't feel any pressure, neither, and I just feel like in one spot.
I just don't like that metally feeling and don't see why I should exist merely to foil past generations. I've come to a breaking point of stupidity. I guess I've always been that way. I don't want to have to feel something in a wrong way or in some way just because of something that's not my fault. I'm pretty mad about the fact that maybe I'm younger than people who have older moms, like who are younger. I guess it makes sense. I feel better now that I realize that I like having my father be the age that he is. I find that most people who are younger, men, are kinda hick. I had a dream about Ellen DeGeneres last night, and she resembled the youngest boy in "The Brady Bunch." I don't want to be like other people with a mom my mom's age, though.
So, I guess if I had kids, I'd be out, but I made like a labyrinth around the idea of having kids, nothing anyone would want to ever like "take any of my time."
So, I like my mom because of her generation, and when people ... her style ... the style of her generation ... and when people try to like make me think otherwise, like not feel a certain way, I get an after-effect.
I'm also not less smart. Wouldn't that make your parents less smart?
Why would my mom be less like people in between her age and someone else's? Well, her dad looks more like that, for some reason, but her mom does't.
So, do you see things from the 80s and like old times like for kids all as a big blur?
I find that people with a mom my age who are younger seem like they have a mom who is older. They tend not to listen and not be like their parents.
So, I tend to think sometimes of one person at a time, no matter who it is, but sometimes I'm used to thinking of other people, I noticed.
I guess I got mad the way I feel a bad way. I don't feel loved. How can I function?
I guess a lot of kids try to copy older kids but think they're different when they act the same way.
Something that bothered me was that the female trait comes from the dad, and the neutral|male trait comes from the mom. However, I'm a girl, and I like my mom. I'm not gonna ever do mental gymnastics for an older woman. Nor for younger women who are afraid to feel.
I guess younger kids are more juiced up from their moms.
My mom might seem to supplement my dad, but she doesn't go through things like people more his age do.
So, people care about people born around 1960 but not about kids born around 1985.
Just watched the last 3 episodes of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
So, I guess I have to think on this and go to bed. Good night, all! :)
I'm a bit old for Ellen DeGeneres, but when push comes to shove I will admit that she's old enough to know everything about me because I know everything about you. So, no, I'm not really, in every way ... too old for Ellen DeGeneres.
What concerns me most is the afterlife. No one is concerned about what happens when we die. I'm actually more concerned about what happenson this earth.
So, my biggest obsession is the ride that features Ellen DeGeneres at Disney World. I am obsessed with her robot. I am also obsessed with the trees around her.
I think everyone is most obsessed with that, underneath it all. It's not what they dwell on, like me.
So, I walked out in the road with cars zooming past me almost constantly, always thinking, always reacting, thinking about this, though I had a lot of quiet moments.
I've been on some adventures myself that involve the "afterlife." I shared this experience with other people, in certain ways, but I knew I could get people to come into it for me, if I can tap into it in a certain area. The funny thing is a hurricane brought me there, when I thought my life was an experiment, eventually.
So, one thing I came up with that probably is an idea lots of people have had is that there are ghost-infested areas, and I started watching "Ghost Adventures" as my first TV thing, after my life changed when I punched my wall, not in a very bad way, feeling treated racially bad online.
The ultimate thing, I can't remember exactly, would be to concoct this hugely complicated idea that road with me as I walekd where like you get a comepetent movie star to go to a ghost site with a bunch of people ... does't sound that cool. If you think about it, it makes sense.
My initial idea was to go in a place with a lot of foliage, like dark, but away from society so that you know there's no one there. I'm not sure about the animals.
There's just one thing to think about I guess, and it guides you to your goal. My goal is or was Disney World, and then it became Disneyland when I finalized it.
The one thing that keeps me going is think of it this way. If you can get people excited and scared, they will end up doing anything.
I guess one magical thing that happened to me was when I went to Disney World with my friend, my hair was smooth and curly just those days, like in those little black curls but not too small but pretty small. She surprised me. It was a very "realistic" experience, but it was very enriching. After living in Disney, it's kinda not really magical, me not having gone there when I believed in magic, but I was lucky enough to go along pretty excited and have some funny things happen. I guess I got practice from being with my friends. Well, 1 friend. (Oh no, there was and is a moth around my computer screen. There are 2 things in my bathroom, too, still.)
Well, I didn't get any souveniers when we went to Disney World on my birthday. We didn't go much growing up. I went when I was 10 with relatives. I went with my friend a few times as a pre-teen and teenager. I went to Grad Nite, which, I was tired, but other than that, it was so cool. Then, we went back again in the summer, and my relatives and friend came.
(I've been battling this moth. Maybe, I should ignore it or tired it out.)
Well, I know that when I think of something that it will mappen.
(I turned on the light and brushed it away.)
I was thinking of what was set up when I was 11 and that I was supposed to like baby people my brother's age, who I got on with more than my brother. My brother seemed to always be in the way. I'm taller than the smaller ones probably.
I don't like people who kinda look to the finish and don't want an adventure, who don't have to live. 8^.
Do you also know about people who think they deserve everything?
Well, I think I will be a dinosaur for Halloween.
So, I don't quite know where to begin. Should I hint in a movie, an idea I got, after someone passed by. How would I do that? The main thing I've been thinking about is trees and like glimpses, like ideas, or like ghosts of people. I wonder what goes on through the heads of others and how real the onset is. I can't really think fo what I wan tot.
I know some people never get surprised, conveniently enough. I guess the little things surprise them.
Ifound fun when I was up north and like walking around the city and buying things, looking at things, just dreaming about what interested me. I wasn't able to sustain these things. Only a few things happened. I had a wild time in Orlando.
I wast thinking most people these days don't realize the importance of the experiences of your life.
I guess when I went camping up north was an incredible experience, in and of itself. You have to build up experiences and not take things for grantec.
So, I noticed a lot of people feel a lot, and that's fine with me, though I know I wanted to feel a lot but in a different way.
I wonder why some people don't feel as much ... why some people think ... I forget now.
I wonder why me being the child of someone a certain way I supposedly don't meet his needs as much as the generation that followed him.
So, I am easily succomed by stupidity? I guess I'm uncomfortable. I noticed I don't really feel anything, anymore, and like I don't feel any pressure, neither, and I just feel like in one spot.
I just don't like that metally feeling and don't see why I should exist merely to foil past generations. I've come to a breaking point of stupidity. I guess I've always been that way. I don't want to have to feel something in a wrong way or in some way just because of something that's not my fault. I'm pretty mad about the fact that maybe I'm younger than people who have older moms, like who are younger. I guess it makes sense. I feel better now that I realize that I like having my father be the age that he is. I find that most people who are younger, men, are kinda hick. I had a dream about Ellen DeGeneres last night, and she resembled the youngest boy in "The Brady Bunch." I don't want to be like other people with a mom my mom's age, though.
So, I guess if I had kids, I'd be out, but I made like a labyrinth around the idea of having kids, nothing anyone would want to ever like "take any of my time."
So, I like my mom because of her generation, and when people ... her style ... the style of her generation ... and when people try to like make me think otherwise, like not feel a certain way, I get an after-effect.
I'm also not less smart. Wouldn't that make your parents less smart?
Why would my mom be less like people in between her age and someone else's? Well, her dad looks more like that, for some reason, but her mom does't.
So, do you see things from the 80s and like old times like for kids all as a big blur?
I find that people with a mom my age who are younger seem like they have a mom who is older. They tend not to listen and not be like their parents.
So, I tend to think sometimes of one person at a time, no matter who it is, but sometimes I'm used to thinking of other people, I noticed.
I guess I got mad the way I feel a bad way. I don't feel loved. How can I function?
I guess a lot of kids try to copy older kids but think they're different when they act the same way.
Something that bothered me was that the female trait comes from the dad, and the neutral|male trait comes from the mom. However, I'm a girl, and I like my mom. I'm not gonna ever do mental gymnastics for an older woman. Nor for younger women who are afraid to feel.
I guess younger kids are more juiced up from their moms.
My mom might seem to supplement my dad, but she doesn't go through things like people more his age do.
So, people care about people born around 1960 but not about kids born around 1985.
Just watched the last 3 episodes of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
So, I guess I have to think on this and go to bed. Good night, all! :)
Delption of the Brain
YOu can't say things without figuring them out first and keep figuring them out later. You'll not be very smart.
Mad
My parents put the peanut butter on top of the salt. I guess other people do that. I wouldn't. That's just dumb. Why make an open cover?
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