Dream

Also, I was behind a couch, which was like an old one from my aunt, and I guess yea "Ellen DeGeneres" was sitting on it.  My family was all there, I think my dad standing up just smiling, only forcing smiles, like he had to leave.  I was talking and sounded just like "Ellen DeGeneres."  It's funny on her episode today, there was another girl from Orlando who I think was Hispanic with cancer, very slim and looked kinda Asian with big eyes and quite tan but not too dark skin.. and she quoted "Just keep swimming.. Just keep swimming.." and looked just like Dory with her big eyes.  At first, I didn't realize she was from Orlando.  I just didn't get how she learned that.  When I watched it a 3rd time, It hink, online, and the 2nd time, I realized, maybe only twice online, that she was from here.  I'm guessing she's really from here.  Pretty much, I know that Disney is a highly elevated society.  I moved here from New Orleans, and the first think I got was clean.  When I moved to the New Orleans area, what I got was not high-tech.  Well, I figured that, too, later.  The airport, while very small and dingy yet with a nice restaurant ... ... ... ... Sonic.  They closed it when I left.  Anyway, the toilets moved.  However, when I was in Jacksonville... the trash cans were methodical yet timeless and said like stuff like Thank you ... for throwing away your trash?  I used to live in that area for a total of a little over 5 years.  I don't know, it's just different, but Orlando is clean and moral.  Jacksonville, obviously, is moral in a different way.  Jacksonville is a complex society which is situated in the region of Northeastern Florida, along the coastal region.  :D  It's very modern.  People think like normal people.  It's not about the beach like where I'm from originally, which I remember ad which was the smoothest part of my childhood, the time that made sense where I was always well-behaved.  I know it's also after my brother was born and he got in trouble, whereas I never did, though growing up I was highlighted as the bad one for criticizing my life.  I was in a lot of pain, tired.  So, I know, like, in Orlando, the kids here can channel in Disney.  The adults can channel in stuff, too.  I always hated the New Orleans area and wanted to live in the city, was looking forward to it.  I cared about the people there.  :|  Strangely, when we moved to Orlando, I had this split feeling at first of wanting to be in Florida again in the most major city, "fuck" Miami.  :D  It was my first time not being on the Southeastern|Northeastern coast, but my aunt lives in Northwestern coast.  My aunts both used to live in Fort Lauderdale, suburbs inland.  We were "poor" when we lived in the area, as well, and my aunts didn't have any kids.  So, I guess how Ellen DeGeneres looks at New Orleans is how I look at Florida.  8^0  It's funny, I traveled for college.  During Katrina, I was up north, in Cleveland, and had to come home early.  I was in New Orleans the next semestser, a free semester in the summer, and the start of the fall.  When I came back, I preserved my New Orleans culture, more than an actor does theirs in L.A.  So, I am very interested that Ellen DeGeneres had a girl from New Orleans on her show.  I found her to be not totally in line really but still.  Will they ever?  I've never seen anyone so open channel anything like that, better than in the movies, yet still like me not necessarily will be hired.  Kids in Orlando are quite inhibited.  8o  They are holding in a lot of talent, yet some are kinda like more nostalgic about being poor and stuff.  Their eyes definitely light up.  I've never seen such sparkly eyes, but it seems kids have become more trashy since.  Like, it was endless.  This girl with dark blue eyes, straight smooth medium brown hair, not very light skin, had like such sparkly eyes and was reveling in sin that she was of a generation with more emotional parents.  I got so mad once I stomped on the floor at a kid.  Several times, in the city, I've seen police following me.  I think that's why I stopped going out as much.  8.  So, anyway, I know, now, kids in Orlando can suddenly encompass a tacky feeling of living here, like they like it, like a glassy-eyed feel.  I've seen some skinny people online who look pretty nice, though, a bit smug.  So, there are a lot of weird kids here.  The funny thing is, they have small beady eyes.  They look like they think it's romantic to be poor.  I know not everyone is like this.  I don't know why I see a lot of people who are, though, like via media.  It's so weird.  Their parents are like showing off how base they are.  Anyway, it's so weird how young kids here channel in thoughts like of Disney cartoons, I guess.  I think people here my age would have, as well.  I just don't, kinda a feeling of withholding myself in other areas in Florida, I think the Jacksonville area.  I'm not really sure how this happens.  The funny thing is when I realized she was from Orlando I was able to channel in how she did that and like was on top of her pretty much but no into it.  Anyway, I totally respected that accomplishment and was totally interested.  However, though, I've had trouble gluing myself to other types of kids here and before young adults, for some reason...  :|